I think before that injection, the on call doctor checked mommy out and found I hadn’t dilated much and felt that the second membrane was still intact. She was so rough with sticking her hand in and using whatever apparatus to break the membrane it made me cry. When she was done I saw this bloodied clamp/scissor like thing she passed on to the nurse. I was shocked and looked at daddy and he looked weirded out looking at the thing.
From then, I made up my mind that doctor was to never step into the room again, and told the midwife so.
After that it was dozing in between pain. It was really strange, when the contraction hits, I’m wide awake and in pain, then when it subsides, I’m dozing away. I welcome it really, gave me a chance to recover and relax.
I hoped for us to be out of there before the midwives changes shift because we’re so comfortable with them already.
Everything else was pretty much a blur after that. I remembered being checked several times, I remembered being asked if I needed the toilet, yes, needed to empty the bladder and was told won’t feel a thing, they lie, I could feel the catheter going in and out! I remembered being asked if I got that sensation of needing to take a dump, no. Most of all, I remembered being in pain, but now I don’t remember how the pain felt.
After several hours had gone by I was glad when they checked to see how far along the cervix dilated, and it was only 6cm! I was so annoyed, and that was when they emptied out the bladder, and checked again and I was 7cm dilated!
The time between going from 7cm to 10cm I don’t remember. Just being in lots of pain. I do remember hearing the midwife saying everything else had dilated, just this one bit left.
After asking me over and over whether I am feeling the urge, I finally felt the urge. During this time my eyes were shut tightly because of the pain, yet I could feel everybody was getting to their battle stations.
Next thing I knew daddy was holding mommy and I heard someone telling him how to hold me. I heard someone told me to hold my legs. I felt my legs being held by someone or more and was told to push against their hands. And I was aware there seemed to be more people in the room.
I was right, there was a cheerleading squad cheering mommy on to push! It was weird, strange and supportive. I think somewhere in the back of my mind with the pain in front thinking, gosh, I wasn’t expecting this…
The pain I felt wasn’t what I expected ‘the ring of fire’ to be. I thought that meant the vagina opening as baby makes it way out. What I experienced was a burning sensation all around the pelvic! There was really nothing I could compare it to. I didn’t know at what stage baby was at. I thought baby was still in there and mommy was trying to push you out just to get through the canal.
At one point, I opened my eyes and saw the doctor, I yelled out to get her out of the room. Daddy said she was ready to use the vacuum just to pull you out!
One of the midwives asked mommy if I want to have an episiotomy done, she kept on saying it’ll make the delivery easier and mommy won’t feel a thing. In the end, mommy gave in worried baby probably hadn’t crowned. They lied again, mommy felt them cutting, twice! And mommy said so too. I wondered how they reacted when I said that.
Then another urge came to push, and mommy pushed hard and it literally felt like a plug being pulled out because out came baby with a pop! I was surprised, I didn’t expect it was that…easy? Soon? Quick. Painful but fast. I remembered looking at the clock on the wall when it happened, 1.28pm. Half an hour before the midwives changes shift.
They held you up to me and I saw a purplish baby covered in vernix and crying. They gave you a quick wipe down and placed you on mommy’s chest and I immediately breast fed you.
Apparently at that time daddy was told to go outside and get a breath of fresh air, he said there were lots of nurses in the room and he left and made calls to your respective grandparents.
When he came back mommy was being stitched up. You got taken away and I had to verify your name tag they were going to put on you and at the same time felt the local anesthetic injection they gave me, I could feel the needle going in at two places down there. Then, for some reason what I didn’t get was that I could feel every single needle stitch! You should’ve heard mommy, it was ‘OW OW OW’ all the way. Had to bite the towel I had with me to bear the pain. It took the nurse an hour to stitch me up.
During that time, a nurse gave daddy your cleaned and neatly wrapped up placenta and he put into the cooler bag we brought.
I asked for an ice pack to try and sooth the bits down there afterwards and got dressed and put in a wheelchair. I was just feeling exhausted and wondered if I could move. We left the labour ward with mommy in the wheelchair with a nurse pushing the chair, another nurse carried you and daddy at my side.
We went back to the maternity ward and placed in a bed by the window which mommy was happy with because it was nice and bright. Mommy gingerly got out from the chair and was helped in bed, you were placed in the bassinet that was next to the bed. Nurses left leaving just you, me and daddy.
Daddy stayed for a bit to make sure mommy was comfortable and had you in my arms, he left to send your placenta to your paternal grandparents for burial and would bring mommy’s hospital bag when he’s back.
You and I snuggled up and fell asleep.
Welcome to the world baby.
Love,
Mommy
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